I have never taken drugs at all not even I smoked or drink.
I didnt because I just don't like it. Also I have a very big imagination and I feel I am the kind of person who would go completely crazy with drugs.
Anyway I have a southamerican friend.she is into chamanic stuff , she says eating weed as a ritual like doing it in a guided meditation.amd special environment, can help you to spiritually release some blockages as a one day ritual when there is full moon.
My problem basically is that I am trapped latelly in a low vibration.
Usually I am happy and I feel life is meaningfull and I have dreams and hope.
But for some reason latelly my selfconfidence completely dropped. I am in a hipersensitive state, my friends are telling me I get hurted by any little stupid thing. And they are right.
I am fluctuating from wanting to live to feeling life is pointless.
And its annoing bcs I am so lucky in so many things and very good things happen to me.
Its all about deep fears I have.
So its so frustrating to know my biggest problem is just selfcreated , and its in my mind. Just bcs I cannot drop fear.
she says with that ritual I will feel all fears more intensely and then face it inside of me and drop it.
I have been going to a psicologist but the problem doesn't seem to fully go.
Anyway as I am a yoga teacher I studied drugs are really bad for your chakras, it completely breaks and unbalance everything and then its difficult to repeair this energy break.
But on the other hand I am already kind of broken so I feel well... then why to care?😅
I just wanna do something to stop being worried and afraid all the time. I really dont wanna live like that but I cant control it.
Any of you had chamanic rituals with weed or any experience like that?
Ayauaska I dont wanna do it bcs I am sure I would be high for a month at least.
what do you think?